Thinking about "NOTHING"

I have done this several times when i am utterly frustrated or just too calm or just too messed up in a troubleshooting that is going nowhere, I will start thinking something when my roomie will shake me up and ask. "What are you thinking?”? My answer will be "Nothing".

I started wondering today that why is that I think "nothing”? There are so many issues in and around me that needs dire attention like my laundry or global warming but still I am not thinking about them. What’s wrong with me or is it something that happens with everyone. How would I know never shared this thing with anyone :).

I started analyzing the times when I thought about "Nothing" and I reached a conclusion that Whenever I want my mind to wander in a blissful state when either something is going wrong or nothing is happening around me I start thinking about it and this "Nothing" is not completely empty, It has all my thought's jumbled up in a big mess and I start thinking about second topic before I can finish the first one , The topics at that point range from filling my timesheet to Why Alice could see figures in cloud's and I can't ? My wishful thinking at that moment takes 1000 wings and wants to fly away where ever I want and that’s one of the reasons that when someone asks me what were you thinking I have the answer "Nothing". As even i am not sure that those thought's can be put in word's or not.

When i started writing my first blog on Wipro Portal , I had "NOTHING" in my mind .

Dynamic's in Life

Life is changing fast and being a Taurus i am not a big fan of changes or the changes which are not in my favour. However, In life there are few changes on which we don't have any control what so ever and you would have to live with it .

I am on my another shortest possible trip to my hometown and as usual the frenzy of meeting of all my relatives is driving me crazy in a good way . The food is great the love that i get from them is priceless and the way they treat me like a kid still amazes me, i am a female of 5'8 for god sake .

When i was in school and come to this place which is nearly 2 hour's away from kolkata and you have to either take a bus or local train , i prefer locals any day over buses.This place is called Basirhat this place happens to be my mom's mother place ( birth place ) . Her home is a joint family however everybody has their their home in one boundary. So when i used to enter this place it was so lively with people buzzing all the places servent's running every where and kid's playing or just creating noise and all the females of the house either cooking or gossipping and i had to spend so much time downstair's that by the time i reached my nani i was tired, that was several years ago.

When i came down this time everything looked same from outside but when i entered the gate of the grand home i was shocked by the silent greeting that i got from the walls around me and the the hearts of people that had grown cold with time for some reason. The elder's of family are left behind due to family issues between 2 brother's. 2 cousin sister not talking with each other when they live in the same building ,it was very starnge for me to look at the home like this where once the heart's were so warm that it could have melt an icecream.

It's a depressing house now , People want to get out of here and never come back . i don't blame those people who would want to live in a place where a dad beat's up his wife and the daughter's , and one of the daughter takes nerves medicine so that she can sleep while all this happens in house and later she is diagnosed with nerve diesease, i would definitely not want to live in such place .

It's sad that how everything is changing. i wish globalwarming could warm up the hearts of people also and everything could go back to what it was like once.

Ahhhh.. My wishful thinking.....

Drenched Rain

I have always loved rain as a kid,it was my dream to learn swimming in flood and i had told my babai the same thing and he laughed like a hyena rolling on floor, that was an embarrassing idea i had but anyways that's long ago when i was in first standard.

Now i am like any other girl and when my feet is pedicured i don't like to dirty it .

But today GOD had some different plans for me.

Me and my roomie after 3 long week of contemplating decided that today is the day to shop so around 4:45 pm we left for MG road. Sreeparna complained even before getting out of the house"OMG it's so sunny outside and it's nearing 5 in evening doesn't look like though"

I told her let's go shopping and be crazy :-D the wise me .

We were waiting for the bus and Sreeparna started complaining of headache due to sunshine and i had to provide shade for her with my height ( She is Sweet at times ),We finally got a tum tum ( a rickshaw kind of thing that normally fit's in 4 ppl ) and we decided that we will go to cooperation and from there we will catch another bus that will take us to MG.

The moment we sat in tum tum we loved the cool breeze blowing all around us and by the time we reached cooperation it was pouring and i was in shocked state of happiness and craziness and Sreeparna was thinking way to get us in MG and i was thinking way's to get that tum tum guy to return to our place. Both of us did what any sane person would do , We got out in the rain and with in 2 seconds we were drenched, We took shelter below some one's stair's with 15 other people there.
We gathered some courage and got out in rain search for a Bus / Auto / Anything that will take us back to house,we said sandal shopping can wait but we need to get back, So we took shelter against a " CLOUD BURST " in a bus stop shed and it was pouring from all sides and there our mind played a nice trick and both disillusioned girl's decided to go to Mc D in Aundh . We abducted an Auto wala and made him take us to Mc D , Where the juicy burger's were waiting for both of us. At that point of time i felt like i am in movie " Harold and Kumar go to white Castle " . We got there and ordered our items and i specifically asked Mc D guys if drenched people are allowed to sit inside, He just grinned :-D.
We ordered 2 Chicken Mc Grill,1 Mc Veggie ,1 Mc aloo Tikki, 1 medium french fry, 1 potato wedges, and 2 hot cappachino.

It was a bliss to have all those stuff as we both were hungry,Sreeparna with her dipping clothes made a nice water park around her :-D

From there we went gift shopping and Sree gifted me a nice diary and from there we took another Auto and came back to our place and had Nice filling and aromatic Apple pie.

We both are always hungry When it's good food .

CHANGES

Someone once said
" CHANGE IS ESSENCE OF LIFE "

I guess he was right and he had a foresight better than any of us.
In the span of my career in IT i have seen people changing more than the policies and that baffles me .
I am a girl who is bad in politics and worse in diplomacy :-(
I tried to learn these traits and failed with flying colors, Though i have seen people who have done this with so aplomb as if this was their forte.
When i see people around me change so fast i feel i never knew them really.
Convenience is something that they were looking for and when they got that they modified themselves to fulfil the needs. " Survival of the fittest " this quote by Charles Darwin holds so much worth in today's life . He would had been amazed to know that what he said for species in paleolithic age holds true in 21st century also.
But i am trying to find an answer to a question which is unanswered for me :
IS CHANGING IN A NEGATIVE WAY IS NECESSARY ?